一不留神起了个过大的题目.事实上是一年一度的women in focus,世界女性电影工作者论坛又开始了.这一周来天天上课路过那些宣传海报都垂涎不已,自打预定了位置之后就一直犯花痴,太想膜拜一下这些在hollywood电影工业风口浪尖处的女人们的风采.

还不到一点studio就人满为患了,除了电影学院各届各专业师兄妹们,不知哪里冒出了好些穿着入时的摩登女郎,一个个事业有成的样子,但也和我们一样交头接耳,捧着笔记本和DVD,坐在位子上张望.这个下午,该如何形容呢.每次坐在硕大的电影院里,灯光一灭就仿佛身处一个人的孤岛,哪怕座无虚席,可黑暗中,只有自己,和对面的影象.这个下午,仿佛在孤岛上眺望,看海面冉冉升起的灯塔,有夜明珠共潮水而生.有多夺目,又有多温柔.

我曾以为这些女导演,女制片和女编剧,能有今日成就,一定多少舍弃了女性的符号,像国内的一些女导演一样,抽烟喝酒粗声粗气的讲脏话,一副大老爷们的架势,仿佛唯有如此才能在男人的天地里争得一席之地.我错的很彻底.她们竟然如此可爱,如此女人,如此时尚和精巧,在台上一字坐开,谈笑风声,就像任何一家高尚club里的女会员们,你会以为这是一次美容或者红酒沙龙.Martha是年最长者,是美国导演协会的第一任女会长,就是这位穿着桃红色cashmere毛衫,和蔼可亲的大婶拍下CSI和SEX AND THE CITY.Catherine是最近的新贵,凭着<香草的天空>的美术设计出道,目前炙手可热的twilight就是她的作品,我虽对twlight并不感冒,但也难免不为她笑眉笑眼的邻家气质打动,她一会儿用手指卷着头发,一会儿抿嘴微笑,声音又轻又小.Jocelyn算是今天最美,高个长腿,一头褐色卷发,脚上是前阵子最流行的流苏羊皮靴,裹着披肩斜斜的靠在座位上,她和她夫君双剑合壁,出品了一系列电影,有peter pan,我最好朋友的婚礼等等,还被斯皮尔伯格钦点了去导戏,怎么能有这么时髦的导演?我连拍个短片都灰头土脸的,惭愧啊惭愧.

我要单起一行说说我的偶像kimberly! Boys don't cry影响了多少和我一样的女孩子们.整个下午,我的眼睛一刻也不能离开她,她那么瘦,那么小,却又那么潇洒伶俐,剪了薄薄的细碎的短发,披一件轻软的半长皮衣,忽而跃上讲台,又索性躺在地上翘着脚和我们一起看自己的电影片段回顾,她说话节奏很快,拿自己开涮,又拿压迫过自己的投资方头头开涮,说起举债卖房子拍片的事,或者在南亚当了五年摄影记者的事,就好像是网上看来的一则俏皮故事,没有忿忿,没有忧伤,也没有感慨.因为她的速度太快了,她一直在往前走.拍完the L word,kimberly说在筹备的新戏是一部性喜剧. 从来没有见过这样的女人,kimberly,我没有白白喜欢这么多年.

结束的时候我并没有挤进人群的中央和她们说上几句话,即使真的排队等到了,我又要说什么呢?我喜欢她们的作品,它们给我带来过不同的想法,这才是最恰当的关系.

 

我家亲爱的小C烟花四月才下扬州,发给我看烟雨蒙蒙的瘦西湖,杨柳幼细婆娑,我好想你哦...

保佑一下自己,下周末去吃Todai!带着荣美的期望,总有个角落在发生好事呦~

 

今天LA妖风四起,从主校区下班回家路上只见浓云泼墨,烈风滚滚,吹的我头晕眼花,以为要三打白骨精.

所有的假期都是短的,春假更短,还没咂摸过味来又投身到赶deadline的事业之中了.最近情绪不佳,消沉的有些过了分了.嫌弃看英文,觉得处处不高兴.不是这海滩阳光不好,只是哪里抵得过家乡的清明时节雨呢.

最近好几个熟识的女孩子带了男朋友回皖南了.纷纷po出照片,勾我思乡.

是啊,又到了喝新茶的时节,合该领着心爱的人,回去,回到一片青砖素瓦之中.洗手煮茶,再摆两三碟时令的茶果,读读旧书,散步去看那远处青山如黛,油菜花灿烂可爱.

江淮女子素有北国胭脂之节烈,又带南方碧玉的燕婉.你倾心相待,要她"宛转蛾眉马前死"都可以.

 

以前走哪包里都带着小木梳子和润唇膏,怕人前不雅不美,现在是止疼药和安眠药.只要不人前失态就可以了.不像在家,抱着枕头满床滚着喊疼,自有妈妈来拍着哄着喝生姜红糖水.摸着包里还有药,在现场一盯12个小时也安心些.切不可在外人面前出丑丢脸.

说到安眠药,我又要小记一笔,他们不过就是sleeping pills,我们则有名曰"忆梦返". 噫!

 

又:眼看着一篇篇书评都出来了,拗不过好奇读了些片段,更着急想看<小团圆>啦!

 

 

本次旅程特别鸣谢不笑很有气质笑起来就很甜美的发条橙子和劳苦功高热爱抓拍的YS同学.

昨天晚上兢兢业业的写游记,眼看着再写几个字就要po了,一挥手,全没了.

心里那个沮丧.照片都在相册里,就不重复了.

写那么长的流水帐,是想逼自己记得所有的细节,用轻快的笔触,是想今后回忆起来也是一样轻快的心情.

很多事情你以为会非常难忘,但真的有一天也就这么忘记了.

一路开夜车回LA,到家时候正是黎明前最黑的时候,我们在山顶上停车加油,夜风呼啸而过,远处的LA城市璀璨灯火宛如大理石桌面上的一碗水银,整个星空前所未有的逼近,我看见悬在头顶上的一把巨大的勺子,我猜它就是北斗七星吧.

两天三夜的旧金山之行,是我来美国这八个月第一次出门,连教授都劝我逛逛大好河山,不用一直宅在小小的OC与功课纠结.造物主真的对美国格外偏爱一些,赐予它如此辽阔的一片海湾,让它得天独厚,立于不败之地.

 

清晨的阳光下在金门大桥上自由的漫跑;

舔着全世界最好吃的冰淇淋在夕阳的渔人码头看海狮晒太阳;

沿着haight区一家家尖顶可爱的嬉皮士小店逛过去;

st.mary大教堂里七彩琉璃的屋顶下的默默祈祷;

在stanford的main quard的长廊边,安静的坐在草地上读书;

海湾公路上一路飞驰,大声唱歌,看两边的山谷静谧,海水悠蓝;

这些都是想要和亲爱的人一起度过的事情,都是旅行的意义.

 

最满意的纪念品是在castro区(最著名的同性恋街区,永远飘扬着彩虹旗帜)找到harvey milk的小店,居然还在经营,很低调的艺术品店,并没有在兜售milk的相关产品,除了一小面墙上有他的彩色肖像画.买了一个树皮做的笔记本.我不知道会写下些什么.

如果有下一次,我还想再在渔人码头的任何一家lounge bar里喝醉.上了年纪的band搭配的桑塔那老歌非常下酒.又淳朴的拿喝生啤的超大直筒杯装鸡尾酒,我素来长袖不善饮,mai tai 和长岛冰混着喝,一会儿就茫了.回宾馆的电梯口就掌不住了,一口至少吐了40刀的铁板大海蟹吧,那个心疼的.还硬赖是半夜的码头海风太大,旧金山的路太陡,司机同学技术太烂把我整晕车了.

我故意要茫一下.要那么样的一刻钟,世界全是大雾,听见自己乱七八糟的心跳,然后笑嘻嘻的口若悬河,话从前,想当年.

 

 当然女人们的每一次旅行都是以购物结束,我们在union square杀进杀出,虽说都是哪儿都有的牌子,但难免有隔锅饭香的心理,我以和时间赛跑的速度拿下一条AF毛边短裤.都说旧金山会让人有种回家的感觉,我想指的应该是城市结构,这里的市区可以是南京西路,也可以是西单或新光天地,是我熟悉的样子.所以一从AF出来时候猛望见对街的zara,我差点没穿越到去年夏天淮海路,也是欧式建筑下藏蓝色的门面.那天我刚拿到美国visa,大餐之后疯狂的扫货.我记得我试了一条非常赫本的小黑裙,但因为背后快露到腰了,还是放下了.那个夏天,我自作多情的在踌躇满志和离愁别绪之间辗转.

 

总得来说旧金山是个谦逊的城市,就连夜晚的金门大桥也没有披红挂绿张灯结彩.因为它有经历,所以更加成熟和包容.

我自认从来不是一个运气好的人,所以更应该学会萍水相逢.

 

又:一回来就听说家乡地震了.虽然只有3.4级却也让我惴惴不安,为祖国祷告.中国平安.

 

太准了!

找工作，面临搬迁，计划延迟，巨蟹们都来看（直接看summary好了）

金星逆行即将结束，我的倒霉日子也该到头了．

susan miller
Cancer (June 21 - July 22)

　　Your career could be at the very top of your mind as April opens. At the end of last month, just after the new moon, March 26, opportunities for a new and better job may have begun to emerge. If you didn't see too much happening at that time, intensify your efforts later, in the second half of April. Mars is on the way to help you and will enter your high-level career house from April 22 to May 31.
　　It really doesn't matter what type of work you may be seeking - a promotion at your present firm, a new high-status job at a competitive company, or the start of your own company that you will set up. No matter what you have in mind, you can see good progress in April. 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　That new moon that appeared at the end of March was a key moment, for it was ready and able to help you see victory. You've not had much help in this realm from the cosmos prior to this, and to move up, it often hinges on having a positive new moon. This one conjoined Venus, suggesting good things would be said about you in the upper echelons.
　　 There was one problem with that new moon, however, in that it was in hard mathematical angle to Pluto. You may have had problems getting things off the ground in a timely manner. You may have had to battle obstacles, including office politics that may have seemed unusually aggressive or outright unfair. OK - that's real life, but don't dwell on that. They are just that - obstacles - but they need not stop you. You can outwit them, but you've got to stay on your toes. If you are starting your own business, be sure you understand tax and labor rules, as Pluto rules the government, too. Alas, not knowing the law doesn't mean you don't have to comply with them - you do!
　　 This month, you will have help from Mars in your quest for a better job, beginning April 22 when Mars moves into Aries and into this same house, your tenth house of honors, awards, achievement, and fame. This is precisely where you will want Mars to be, for this small but feisty, energetic planet can make you unusually assertive and single minded in your quest to win the job you have in mind. Mars will put a spotlight on you - that is what you want!
　　 Even if you have been unemployed for some time, as has been the case for many people in this economy, you still have every reason to be optimistic. You've not had this kind of high-level help from Mars for a very long time (two years to be exact), so this month from April 22-30, give your job search your all. You will have Mars next month too, but there will be different roadblocks in May that I will describe in a moment. For now, be determined to be quite the sprinter in April.
　　 Any high level person who has promised to give you a fine reference will deliver on that promise. With Venus and Mars both traveling in your house of career status after April 22, the buzz about you will be very upbeat. Venus has been retrograde, and as a result, you may have had to put up with slow progress, with many delays in your search for a new job. At month's end, you will be gratified that you are on track and moving quickly.
　　 You may have been distracted by certain conditions going on at home, perhaps a housing or other aspect regarding a living condition. Or, you may need to concentrate on a matter regarding a roommate or a family member. Whatever is on your mind, it will consume you enough to prevent you from committing to an all-out career effort. This is only temporary, for Venus retrograde has been to blame - but once Venus resumes a fast track from April 17 onward, you should feel back in the saddle and ready to become a very determined competitor. Venus will not go retrograde again this year.
　　 Whatever you've been focused on at home will finally reach an important point April 9, at the full moon. You may feel things plus or minus four days from this date, April 9. This is actually a good full moon because Jupiter will be very friendly to it, so solutions will come up.
　　 It would not be wise to be out of town over this weekend, for it looks like you'll need to attend to something important going on at home, with your present home, other real estate, or in regard to something happening at home. Full moons bring closure, so after this date, you will more easily direct your attention to your career.
　　 As I had outlined, Venus will go direct one week AFTER this full moon arrives on April 9. Venus was retrograde since March 6, so there are several indications in your chart that thing are about to go much better once Venus "wakes up" on April 17. And then, with Mars about to move into your career house on April 22, you should certainly be zooming forward at that time. Use this phase to your advantage, dear Cancer.
　　 I am not sure why the timing I have stated seems a little bit odd - the full moon will crystallize home-related matters within four days of April 9, but Venus, ruler of your home sector, will not regulate its orbit until April 22. I suppose you will have to get details tied up in the days that follow the full moon. One thing is for sure - you won't be so focused on home or family after the full moon has fully waned, and you'll be free to devote yourself to your career from then on.
　　 Keep in mind that some of your very best career progress will take place from April 22 to 30. Next month, another planet, Mercury, will retrograde from May 7 to 30. That planet will create more - but different - delays. In late April you will do best by looking at listings, replying to ads, and scheduling formal meetings.
　　 Next month, in May, you will make the most progress by going back to former employers, old-pal colleagues, and past co-workers who may be able to point you in solid, practical directions you may not have considered. Next month, doing cold calling won't bring you nearly as close to a new job as will re-contacting people who know you from the past and who can vouch for your character, judgment, skills, and work ethic.
　　 You can really make a name for yourself, but after this phase, you won't have cosmic help this strong for months. Later in the year, by the end of October, Saturn will move into your family sector, and so you may have your hands full with family matters again or real estate matters. This will represent a very long, three-year trend that is coming on the horizon. It really is critical that you use for all it's worth the lovely career window that will open in late April.
　　 In matters as important as career, be sure to read for your rising sign. Your rising sign can only be determined by having your natal chart done, but once you do, your rising sign never changes. Perhaps you have done your natal chart. If so, please be sure to read for your rising sign every month when you read my forecasts for Astrology Zone, for the rising sign is every bit as important to read as your Sun sign to find the timing of opportunities. Cancer, when you read for that sign, you may find out about more career opportunities that I cannot see here.
　　 I do natal charts for readers in a very comprehensive way. For more information, look for the part on adult natal charts on MyPersonalHoroscope.com.
　　 In the first three weeks of April, you'll have opportunities to travel for any reason, business or pleasure. Mars in Pisces is a sensational place for Mars to be for you, so you should feel that generally things are going your way. If you are involved in any kind of import or export of goods, services, or information, you should see a great deal of demand for your work. Foreign people and places are sweet spots for you, as are publishing and broadcasting industries.
　　 Uranus and Mars will meet up in this house of travel and information on April 15, so you may be taking an unexpected trip on this day. Knowing this, you won't want to have anything pressing on your agenda. If you do, it's likely you'll have to change your schedule, possibly very quickly.
　　 Uranus is the planet of completely unexpected news, and when poked by Mars on April 15, you do have to keep alert and flexible. Chances are in your favor that you will welcome the news of this day because both of these planets will be in Pisces, a sign that blends so well with your Cancer Sun. If you were born on or near July 16, these two planets will send a sweet vibe to your Sun - and you'll have outstanding chances for a surprising success. No guarantees here - I cannot see everything in your chart, but it's looking good.
　　 There are several areas that might be on your mind on April 15: You may get a surprise piece of information from a contact based overseas or who is based in your country, at a great distance from you. Or, a publishing or broadcasting project may come up, or you may be interviewed in the press.
　　 College matters may show progress, too. You may hear news from a university that you had applied to, with surprising results. You may not get into one college you thought would be easy for you to gain entry, but be invited into another college you thought would be nearly impossible to be invited to attend. Uranus, when teamed with Mars, tends to set things upside down. Whenever you have Uranus, you never know, but it looks upbeat for you, dear Cancer.
　　 With all the emphasis on career, home, travel, and other things, you must be thinking, "When am I going to have a little fun and time for myself?" It is coming, for sure!
　　 Watch what occurs over Friday night, April 24, or the weekend of April 25-26 - it's sure to make you happy. The new moon of April 24 will cook up plenty of social activity for you, and from then on, you will have lots of reasons to get out and widen your circle of friends and acquaintances.
　　 At that time, it looks like you will be surrounded with many people and you will be able to network very effectively, too. Aside from that, it appears you will have a special event to go to such as a wedding, reunion, or other celebration. You may have tickets to a concert or play, or visit a theme park, baseball game, or other fun activity that draws many people together. In fact, you may be going to a seminar or trade show as well, and if so, it won't feel like work - you will be able to mix business and pleasure.
　　 If you hope to make new friends, the last week of April will be your moment to join a new club or attend a special program put on by a group you are a member of now.
　　 If you do strike up a conversation with someone you'd like to know better, follow up! Suggest that you both meet for lunch or a cup of coffee soon. There seems to be some sort of important information you and your new acquaintance can share. Jupiter will be beautifully oriented toward that new moon, suggesting that you may even be able to trade some interesting career leads as well that might prove profitable. Aside from career benefits, new friends will add a bit of sparkle to your life.
　　 You may also get surprise help from a current friend at this very same time of the month, April 24. When the news comes you'll probably be amazed. You will have Mercury (news) and Uranus (surprises) to thank for that - fortunately these two planets will be at very supportive angles. As you see, while you will be focused on home or family at the start of the month and on career all month, your friends will have a much bigger part to play later in the month, and you'll enjoy that change.
　　 Romance may blossom this month too, particularly on the weekend of April 11-12 and also on or very near April 23, when the Sun will receive a fine beam from a very supportive Pluto. Those days will have extra benefit to those Cancers born early in the sign, in June.
　　 Another sexy, sweet day for romance worth five stars will be April 21, when Venus and Mars will make a rare and heavenly conjunction - perfect for those Cancers born late in their sign, near July 20. You may even travel on a vacation at this time, and it would be an ideal time to be away.
　　 You've a big month, filled with activity, dear Cancer. Make the most of it!
　　 Summary
　　 You are lucky - you have so much going for you in April. Stay focused on career goals, for you can make an enormous amount of progress. You have the new moon of late last month to help you in early April, and by the time that energy has faded, you will have Mars swinging into action beginning April 21 through May 30 to help you implement your plans and competitive advantage.
　　 The only problem with last month's new moon was that it was not friendly toward Pluto, suggesting that any position you aim for will bring along some very vigorous and possibly even ruthless competition that will stop at nothing to get the job you want. Don't let this discourage you. This only shows the condition, not the outcome - the outcome is up to you. You will have to clearly - and memorably - present the reasons why you are the better choice. You'd most likely encounter this in early April, but not so much later. When you have Mars on your side, you'll be equipped to fight fire with fire.
　　 Venus has been in your house of fame and honors, but has been in weak retrograde orbit since March 6. Once Venus normalizes on April 17, you can more easily get help from references and high level executives whom you know and who want to help you.
　　 Venus happens to be IN your house of career, but it RULES your house of home - so Venus retrograde has been a distraction because something involving home, property, or family seems to have tugged on you. It's very possible that you've been a bit drained by whatever was taking so much of your attention, and it may have been hard to focus on other things, such as your career.
　　 Mercury will retrograde from May 7 to 30, making May a month of delays and of looking back, not forward. Be as productive as you can this month while you have strong cosmic support.
　　 That will all change now. The full moon April 9 will help you find solutions and closure. Shortly after that, Venus' turn direct on April 17 will help you tie up loose ends and forge forward. It does not seem that you'll be thinking about home again until the fall.
　　 Foreign people and all sorts of distant domestic and foreign travel could be golden for you. Watch this area as potentially very lucky. If opportunities in your country seem slim, think about importing or exporting your skills elsewhere. Publishing and broadcasting industries glow for you now too, especially during the first three weeks, while Mars will brighten this area until April 22. This is a very broadening influence, and certainly you seem to be enjoying it.
　　 One day that could be either very, very good or very, very bad is April 15 when Mars (energy or strife) conjoins Uranus (surprise developments). These two planets will meet in Pisces, a sign good for you. I would say, just don't take any chances by provoking anyone with a controversial or inflammatory remark. Those born at the end of the sign, near July 20, are likely to benefit because both planets will be in the right position to send good news. Let's hope so!
　　 You'll get a chance to enjoy fun and romance once the new moon appears, April 26. This would be a fine time to plan on getting out more and mingling with other people. You may decide to join a new club or volunteer for a charity. Even efforts on a small scale, such as an idea to participate in a "5K Run for a Cure" to raise awareness for a charity dear to you, or donating blood to the Red Cross, would bring a warm feeling of gratification. Doing things for charity would be such a good idea for many reasons. When you change your normal "orbit," you open the door for random opportunity to blossom.
　　 One of your favorite days will be April 22, when Mars and his lover Venus will conjoin - it should be a day that's due to be simply divine.
　　 Dates to Note:
　　 Career progress will be much improved in April, especially in the first week and then later, from April 22-30
　　 Venus will go direct on April 17, allowing you to raise your profile and increase the good word about you in your search for a better job.
　　 A home or family matter will be settled at the full moon, April 9 plus or minus four days.
　　International interests shine April 1-20. Travel and import-export will bring good news.
　　 Expect surprising developments involving foreign people and places, and broadcasting and publishing: April 15.
　　If you need to travel, do so anytime from April 1-21.
　　Mercury will go retrograde: May 7 to 30.
　　 A sensational day awaits you: April 22.
　　 Romance will be best: April 1-2, 10, 11, 15, 21, and 24-30.